Finding my Love Story

Throughout the past semester I have been feeling very entitled.  I am entitled to be close with God. I am entitled to have the gift set that I like the best. I am entitled to have promises revealed in the time that works best for me. I am entitled to setting up a plan for the next season so things will fall into place nicely. But entitlement leads to quickly being disappointed with God. Constant disappointment leads to anger. Anger leads bitterness. This is where I was led last semester. It wasn’t that I didn’t have anything good going for me; I was extremely blessed by getting engaged in August among many other things.   My entitlement caused such a distance between me and God. I couldn’t hear Him, see Him moving, feel His Spirit, or find any space that He was in. I was more than angry, I had turned bitter. Until I started a devo that my small group supported me with, I wasn’t able to realize that this was my love story. I have been blessed to never go through a real break up but what I went through last semester with God felt like one. My heart longed to be near God which was a change from not wanting to hear His plan. And once I hit this point where I thought my heart would break, the Lord swept me up and treated me to experiencing His goodness in ways that I have never been able to before. His promises will always be fulfilled. WE are entitled to know that. But we are never entitled to believe the promises will come when we want them too. Even though it may not be now, He will fulfill them.