A Prodigal With No Faith

Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

That has been the theme of my new year.

As a senior, I am supposed to know what I’m doing after I graduate. The reality is, however, I haven’t the slightest idea what I’m doing after I graduate. I’ve been knocking on every door that I come across and all of them appear locked—jobs, graduate schools, everything.

Nothing seems to be working out.

Throughout this process, though, I have not trusted Him with all of my heart and I have not acknowledged Him in all of my ways. I have been trying to do everything on my own strength. As a result, I haven’t been able to discern anything from God. I hear nothing from Him regarding my future. I feel nothing from Him regarding my future.

But the fact of the matter is, I don’t think I have truly invited Him into that area of my life. Something that should be so simple is so difficult.

It’s easy to trust God with the small things in life but the game suddenly changes when there is more to lose. I know the game shouldn’t change, because God doesn’t change. He never has, and He never will. That is why as soon as I start inviting Him into that area of my heart, and trusting Him fully, I know He will reveal His paths for me.