If there’s one thing I hate, it’s waiting. Patience is not one of my virtues.
I think I’ve been this way since I was little, and now that I’m thinking about it, I get it from my dad. He and I are exactly the same in this area, if we say we’re leaving for somewhere at 6 o’clock then we all better be out the door at 5:55. If something needs to get done, we do it then. My mom and sisters tend to get pretty frustrated with us, which is hard for us to understand because to my dad and I, rushing and getting things accomplished quickly is a good thing.
And it is, but not all of the time. Recently, I find this to be incredibly true in my relationship with the Lord.
A few weeks ago at the Well, we asked God two questions, “What are you calling me to leave?” and “What are you calling me to follow?” I sat there attempting to listen to what He might be saying and I had nothing. So, naturally, I started giving Him some suggestions just to offer a bit of help. He didn’t like those ideas, so instead of telling me what I should leave and what I needed to start following, the Lord told me to stay put. Yep, stay put. My first reaction was, “That’s not what you’re supposed to be telling me!” but then He said something else, “Watch me be faithful.”
See, lately I’ve been itching to be done with school, like for good. I’ve been focusing more on not wanting to be here and just being ready to move away that it’s kept me from being really present here. I’m ready for the next phase of my life to start, even though I may not know exactly what that is.
Then God says to stay put, to wait. I was so frustrated. I don’t want to wait, I hate waiting. But then there’s this whole “Watch me be faithful” thing. I’ve been praying into this since that night and I’ve come to realize that I need to be fully here, that God is still doing and going to do things in me here at Ashland in this community.
As uncomfortable as I may be, He is still moving and He’s got big plans for me. I encourage you all to be fully present here at AU, whether you’re a freshman or a graduating senior, to keep searching, seeking, and finding God. He’s here and He’s waiting for you to sit back and enjoy the ride, and of course, to watch Him be faithful.